Traveling during the pandemic was a trip, literally.
I live in suburban Minneapolis. I have local responsibilities in the form of a 17 and 15-year-old.
My wife lives in suburban Atlanta. She has responsibilities in the form of three adorable doggies, a prolific career as a commercial photographer, and my in-laws, who live just up the road from her.
We both maintain houses, lives, and careers separately and together. It’s a strange dichotomy, and yet after more than a decade, it’s as familiar as our respective front door handles.
The pandemic, regardless of your take on it, threatened to disrupt our lives in a cataclysmic manner. We see each other thanks to the fortitude of Delta Airlines almighty. MSP and ATL are thankfully hubs. There are a few dozen flights a day, and we can generally pick out the one that suits us best without great cost. We understand we are blessed. For if she lived in Panama City, FL, or I lived in Butte, MO, the story would be quite different (and a lot more costly).
Love is oblivious to flight paths or airline hubs or geography—this I know.
Thankfully, graciously, miraculously, Delta never stopped flying between MSP and ATL—pandemic be dammed! I flew from MSP to ATL (and back) as though everything was normal. Except I flew on more than one occasion with just two other humans (on a plane with 150 seats).
Honestly, I will cherish these experiences. Firstly, because I cannot tell you how on-time you are when boarding the plane takes 3 minutes. And there is overhead space forever! Peeing was breeze. Getting off the plane in ATL and getting to baggage—generally a cluster-fuck of biblical proportions—was literally like a walk in the park. Sure, there was no place to grab a bottled water, but that was a miniscule price to pay to be able to regularly see my wife during the oddest year-and-a-half of this lifetime.
The one complaint I have about air travel during the pandemic is the selection of movies.
Yeah, this sounds utterly preposterous—I know! And yea, I know, no one was making new movies. I get it. But the best part about flying Delta over say…Spirit…is the amenities. And one of those amenities is having Blockbuster Video right there in front of your big fat face.
The last flight I took prior to the cessation of life as we knew it was a few days before my birthday in very early March (think like the second day of that month). Things were pretty normal. It was the weird period of time when everyone knew shit was about to get real, but no one acknowledged it, aloud anyway.
For me, it didn’t matter. I had to see my wife. And air travel was the only way. So come hell or high virus, I was going to be on planes as long as planes flew. To Delta’s credit, they flew through it all. It sounds trite, but no one who doesn’t live our reality will ever know how much gratitude I have for the pilots and flight attendants who made seeing my wife a reality despite the chaos going on in the world.
Anyway, back to the movies, on the back of the seats, that were occupied by no one. In fact, I could’ve fired up all six screens in the row I was in, and scanned the movie I was watching from once side of the plane to the next. And thankfully, these films—in-flight entertainment—took my mind off of the abject craziness I was experiencing.
But traveling throughout the pandemic caused me to watch every single film that was available. In fact, not only did life cease to move forward, but entertainment did as well. Eventually, I’d watched nearly every film that Delta had stashed in the vault prior to the pandemic.
FFWD >> to the last flight I took from ATL to MSP,—it was a shitshow! Clearly, my fellow humans who, unlike me, had been deprived of travel, decided they all gonna get the fuck outta here. Hartsfield-Jackson is more congested today than I’ve seen it in a decade. And I’ve been there about two-dozen times annually since 2010.
The last Delta flight I took late on a Monday night from ATL to MSP was a nightmare. Long lines, I got the window seat (36A) next to the heater—why are there heat vents on an airplane that open into the cabin??? We had a “plane change” that caused “issues”. We sat on the runway for about 90 minutes in 90-degree heat waiting for this and that. Honestly, it made me yearn for the halcyon days for traveling with three other intrepid Minnesotans during the spring of 2020.
On that fateful flight, I watched a (new old stock) movie titled: At Eternity’s Gate. It’s the Van Gogh biopic staring Willem Dafoe as the tortured artist. I’m not savvy enough to be good at appreciating paintings. I’m much better at music. But, my wife and I had visited the Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam in the mid 2010s. Of all the museums I’ve visited with her, it was far-and-away my favorite.
I may be due to the general lack of nuance, or the frenetic brush strokes, or the bright colors, but I could relate to Vinnie’s desperate painting more than…say…the impressionist masters. I can appreciate what they did (for the most part), but none of their paintings grab me in the way Von Gogh’s do.
The thing that appeals to me most, however, is the artist himself. He’d never so much as picked up a brush until his late ’20s. He’d had no prior artistic training. And he was slightly deranged. Sure, he was never properly appreciated in his time, but I doubt his main impetus for creating art was fame and recognition. In fact, it appears that he had a deep love affair with nature and believed painting would restore the balance in his life. As a result, he often found himself in nature painting.
He was an idiosyncratic artist, but he just translated what was literally before his very eyes onto the canvas in front of his face. The works my wife and I admired in the gallery were his translations and interpretations of what was already there.
Many other artists in many other genres have expressed a similar sentiment. Be it Stephen King, George Michael, or Nick Cave, many artists have expressed the idea that creating art is not actually what an artist does. It’s more like uncovering beauty, or prose, or melodies that already exists and may have always existed in some form.
I write, obviously. It’s the only “art” at which I can pretend to claim any proficiency. And that’s up for debate. I can’t exactly even properly appreciate paintings. Music is vital, but my attempt to learn to play the guitar was laughable. But I’ve always had a knack for writing, or at least that’s what I’ve been told. It goes beyond just liking it or or finding it fun—it’s necessary.
In a Rolling Stone interview from November of 2015, Elton John’s prolific songwriting partner Bernie Taupin summed it up best…
That can be extremely frustrating. But it’s what we have to live with. The thing is, you can be Billy Joel and just give up making records. But the thing is, if you really have the drive and the passion for music and writing, you’re going to do it whether it sells or not, because it’s there inside you. If you don’t get it out, you’re going to explode.
—Bernie Taupin
And so I “get it out,” or as Stephen King put it ever so eloquently in his advice novel, On Writing…
Sometimes you have to go on when you don’t feel like it, and sometimes you’re doing good work when it feels like all you’re managing is to shovel shit from a sitting position.
—Stephen King
Regardless of whether I’m writing to stave off an epic explosion, or I’m shoveling shit from a sitting position, my desire to write is rapacious. And thankfully, to this day, still effortless, I never feel like I’m writing anything new. There is a minute, or two, when I sit down where I have to rediscover my bearings, but then the flow—or whatever you want to call it—just swallows me up. That person who is me rapidly dissolves. Hours later, x amount of words later, I realize I was just a secretary taking dictation.
In her essential guidebook for other writers, Bird by Bird, Anne Lamott pretty much nailed it…
Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve thought that there was something noble and mysterious about writing, about the people who could do it well, who could create a world as if they were little gods or sorcerers. All my life I’ve felt that there was something magical about people who could get into other people’s minds and skin, who could take people like me out of ourselves and then take us back to ourselves. And you know what? I still do.
—Anne Lamott
So here’s to the flow, whatever the fuck it actually is? May it never desert you, or me, or anyone who aspires to uncover all of the great stories, tales, lies, and exaggerations floating around waiting to be translated.
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© 2023 – ∞ B. Charles Donley